Tuesday, March 17, 2015

Day one. Round two.

March 16th, 2015

First week attempt of meal plan didn't go as planned. I'm pissed. I feel trapped. I know I should be able to do this. I'm starting my re-do today. Another chance to not screw this up. I'm going to do it this time. I have to find out if I'm still in control. I'm not sure anymore? I thought I was. I convinced myself I was in control for a long time. Now it seems like something more intense; a brick box built around me by my own doings. No way out. There needs to be a way out. If not I've failed; I've lost all my control. Well, if there is a way out I'm off to finding it...

Daily positive(s)- Started Blogging. Also, commitment to recovery?